Tuesday, July 16, 2013
Growing Up Kinda Sucks
"My 6yo woke up upset this morning. He had a dream that there was a huge game room, but to get in he had to leave a toy in the box by the door. All he had was his beloved stuffed bear that he got when he was born.
Today's lesson: Growing up kinda sucks."
This was posted on a SaHD's page I am a part of on Facebook and I use it with permission and... it broke my heart. Not in a bad way, but, it's something that has been on my mind for a while now, something I haven't been able to get at, something, well, difficult.
Growing up is difficult and watching kids grow up is difficult as well.
Sometimes when I watch my kids playing, especially with other kids, but, really just in general, I am hit with waves of sympathy pains. At the pool lately Nick has been having a hard time getting involved with other kids, playing and the like. He knows a couple of the kids there but hasn't really made any "new" friends. I am afraid the other kids are a little off-put by his cast and, since he doesn't really like to tell the story of how it was broken, I'm afraid he comes off as a little strange.
It's difficult to watch his face as the kid swims off and he stares at the empty spot where the kid was, thinking, I surmise, that something is wrong with him.
And, it's difficult to watch it happen.
I think what makes it really difficult is knowing you can only do so much to fix it.
So, I decided to show you these, instead. A fully articulated, disco-dancing space ninja and a knight banner festooned with string.
I guess I can't really figure out what I want to say today. Nick got his cast off yesterday and we had hoped there would be great joy, but, he's very worried. He told me he was "overwhelmed."
Childhood is difficult to watch. And amazing and delightful and mesmerizing and horrible and flabbergasting and, honestly, so is grown-up-hood.
From Marci's "... things you don't expect to hear from the backseat ..."
(sung) "I am a dingo. I am a dingo. I am a dingo. I am a dingo."
That then segued into "Dingo bells, dingo bells, dingo all the way" ...